Almost Time

I feel like this pregnancy has flown by and we're totally not prepared for this little girl to arrive very shortly. I'm now 38 weeks and 2cm dilated. I asked our doc if we can schedule an induction since we're so far from the hospital and I'm concerned about making it there in time or her coming on a day when B is in OC working and me being here by myself etc, etc. Doc says we can schedule it at 39 weeks which is next Tuesday. SO, she could potentially come as early as next week unless she decides to come on her own before then! Crazy! Her nursery hasn't been worked on other than being painted, a rug, and the furniture from A's room. I just washed her clothes but not her bedding, heck, I don't even have bedding, and I just packed her bag and A's bag. Bri and I haven't even packed our hospital bags yet and her carseat is still sitting in the living room rather than in the actual car. Hmm, I really need to get on it huh?!

At this point in my pregnancy, I've gained about 35lbs (which seems absolutely mortifying in comparison) but I feel good. I didn't have any of the "issues" I had the first time around (gestational diabetes, low amniotic fluid) which has been a relief and a blessing! I most definitely feel baby girl kicking and moving since my placenta isn't in the front this time...even B has been able to feel her all the time which has been fun since he only felt A move like once or twice. Anayah seems to grasp the idea that she's getting a baby sister and seems excited about it more now that my belly is totally obvious but I don't know how much she truly understands what having a baby sister really entails! I suppose we'll find out very shortly! I just keep praying that they will really bond and get along and be the best of friends. 

I think I'm ready. I've been anxious and worried that I won't know how to be the same type of mom to a second child now that my time will need to be shared or my attention won't always be focused only on her. I've struggled with trying to figure out how I'll be able to love another person as much as I love now, but I know it will just happen. I know that people do it all the time, I know I'm not alone in feeling this way. I think I'm just being paranoid. Arrive soon, little girl, we can't wait to meet you!

The pictures posted our from our recent maternity session. I'll post a few more soon but you can also check out the album here. A big thank you to Jessica for taking them and doing a fabulous job!